the murderous rampage of that terrorist subpoena syed farook and tashfeen malik forever changed the lives of so many in san bernardino and many of the survivors are telling abc news they're going through a second trauma, a betrayal being refused treatment and therapy for their wounds both physical and mental. amanda was the partner of the shooter, syed farook at the san bernardino county health department. >> we have an active shooter. we need an entry treatment now. >> reporter: he did not spare her in the attack. rescuers found her shot twice in the leg having lost half her blood. >> she tells me where she had been shot, she tells me that she's going to die and not to let her die. >> i was begging, please help me. please help me. >> i looked down at her and said you're not going to die today. >> reporter: amanda lived but today one year later she is still in pain. told by the county claims administrator she says that a surgery and other treatment she needs were too expensive under california workman's compensation guidelines. >> i was shocked and i need a surgery. >> reporter: they won'